I have been waiting to post here as I slowly tried to find a way to process what happened. I thought maybe after a couple days or perhaps a week, I would be able to articulate what happened. Clearly that's not the case. It has now been twelve days since I competed at the Canadian National Championships, coming second, and all the emotions are still there.
Don't get me wrong I am able to keep things in perspective and can function like a normal human being 99% of my day but that is the cruelty of sport sometimes when you give it you all and come up short when it all counts. That's why I do what I do to put it all on the line...
I had a small weight category at the nationals and had what would be my toughest opponent early on in the day. I had a great preparation leading up into the nationals and was so incredibly well supported by my coaches, teammates, friends, and family. But when I stepped onto the mats that morning, I just didn't have it. I didn't wrestle the way I needed to in order to win and I came up short.
Although I will not be competing at the Pan Am Games in July nor the World Championships in September, I will still be training and competing internationally this summer and I am still committed to becoming the best.
Erica Wiebe is a Canadian freestyle wrestler and Bachelor of Arts student at the University of Calgary. Her passion for wrestling and writing combine in the words of this blog, sprinkled with a strong opinion on certain matters and a hint of feminist thrown in for good measure.